Monday, October 21, 2013

BOYHOOD AND YOUTH

While plesant childhood with sounds, smells and cheers went by
chocking teenage now arrives

Age when  lovers sigh ,
while rebel heart pumps high

While curiosities were in flame ,
Physical desires were always on claim,
Unknown feelings, thousand ambitions
Sometimes praising own creation
Explorations in nature's vicinity
Some authorative shouts putting oneself in pity
Altough some accomplishments , some wins pretty
But some loss & failure came on seeing oppurtunity
Sometimes sighs
sometimes cries
some sleepless nights
claiming unsuccessful tries
Although those years were from confinements & cares
For some meagre wishes - some silent prayers
Soon we grew over our papa's height
that's when he decided to free ourselves from authority so tight
We felt freedom under blue sky in respite
some fears, some authorities were still there in despite
Our curiosities challenged our mind's appetite
Still there was heat of oppresion
Sexual desires burning in suppresion
Mind hesitated in putting up true confession
Parent's dreams and neighbour's expectations
Against our desires , some heavy impositions
To prove ourselves on global frame as revelation
Some blank faces , some unanswered examination
Those years were true crucification
Sometimes for nation's cause dreams of revolution
New experiments , new questions were creeping now
A drive in new city , we all thought so
New avenues , now horizon capturing the spirit of tommorow
new mates , new tastes and new dialects though
Smelling in the air of freedom , new seeds of aspiration to plough
With hard work and persipiration we irrigated them slow
Sometimes recalling bars and shackles we left behind
for we thought this is what we eventually chose
 Together in packs , mingling with counterparts of opposite sex
Some unusual endeavours & some hidden truth now we confessed
Although some inherent boyish intentions were still suppressed
Those valleys and hills fired my imagination & made us restless
But limitations & high aspirations made our heart hopeless
Imprisoned in repute of family and friends
We remained commited to social trends
But soon these limitations & reservations put break on our lust
broke away for no reason from whom we shared our trusts
To know where lie's the love's crux
Now books and books increasing in flux
Love, nature, nation, revolution were now our plucks
Realising trueness of love youth and charm
Mind and soul cherished an unusual calm
While we rest under peace
Alone in valleys hills riverside and trees
Now we are in solitude
with soft and silky hands
it grasped our heart &
made us sorrow
Again we moved to an unknown destination
for unknown's affection and gaining her attention
Wandering in streets , some streets claiming ways to prostitution
from streets of harlots ans sluts , we passed by, recognising family's reputation
Roaming here and there for someon's true affection
Soon i found one after extreme days of exhaustion
Laying in her lap , describing my expression
reflecting first great suffering, then heavenly exalation
Finding that beauty of hers was not classic
but dream of revelation
not measured or bound by the brush of painter
not imprisoned in the chisel of the sculptor
now her innerself makes an impression
her wide deep eyes were only a true reflection
seeing her black hairs and red lips in succession
these were not senders of invitation
rather purity & sweetness of her voice entered into my heart's station
It was not feminine figurine
that ignited my feelings genuine
but its nobility of her spirit
enhancing her strange beauty and dignity
my eyes are now enveloped in tears;one rolling down in self pity
She and I lay under a blossoming tree
which look beautiful in mist of dawn
Lying in silence , listening to heart throbs
adoring each other ;learning that satisfaction lies in unison

Hearts united in sorrow wouldn't separate in glory and happiness
Love cleansed by tears now washes the selfishness
The essence of love binds the two
The mist around, separate them from every worldy foe

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